well. i'd like to comment on M'sian drivers today. Yup, i agree that i'm also a M'sian, got my driving license in M'sian i.e. I'm a M'sian driver too! What is so special about these drivers? OK let me tell u in case ur not driving nowadays.

1. They love to use the emergency lane even though it is not emergency. This usually happens during traffic jams in Federal Highway. Why can't people follow the line? They are just making things worse. The most dangerous thing is when they are in the emergency lane, and suddenly "Alamak, there's a cop standing in front waiting for me! Die lor!" This smart ass will quickly swerved into the slow lane which is next to the emergency lane without giving any signals. I encountered these drivers many many times and luckily, i was slow enough to let them cut into my line. However, the policeman saw him and "Beep!" There he is waiting for u to treat him a drink.
2. Again during traffic jams. They love to change lanes with or without signals. These are the people who created traffic congestion. They will observe which is the fastest moving lane and use their so-called good driving skills and there they go...into other people's lane.
3. Motorcyclists always think that they are some sort of heroes like Arnold Swazer...whatever. Ride in the middle of the lane and start blocking other people.
   
4. Beating the red light. In view that there are many colour blinds on the road. The JPJ wants all the current driving students to sit for a test. And that is...correct the 'colour blind test'. And still u can c people beating the red lights. Therefore, it is proven that they are not colour blind but they are permanently retarded bcoz they don't even know simple traffic rules that kids know.

I'll write more about M'sian drivers coz I'm on the road almost everyday. And that's the time i curse the most. Due to the fact that i'm really really tired now, i've decided to stop here. Nite
  

For the past two days, i began to feel like a student because i stay up late for my research project. Yeah, i noe it sounds really pathetic but it's true. Since the new semester starts in July, the schedule was a bit too free and i feel as if i'm still having my holidays. I've been staying up till four in the morning for the past two days n today, i felt like a zombie in class. It's not because the lesson was boring but i feel as if i need another cup of coffee and true enough i had my second cup of coffee for the day. Well, i know it's unhealthy but i need them. If not i'll be snoring away for the next 3 hours. Getting positive attention from the one i love is the happiest thing during the weekends. Thank you my dear... I felt appreciated when i'm with him and i dun feel that in this house . Even if i felt it in this house, it's like wind... It comes and goes very fast and u might not be able to feel it at all. But with him... I really can feel as if i'm at home. I think many ppl misunderstood the word 'house' and 'home'. I feel at home when i'm with him but i feel i'm in a house when i'm in this house. Hopefully i can get my freedom soon...

friday friday friday...Today is supposed to be a happy day. Ask school going children, teenagers and the ah soh who takes care of kids...they may tell u that friday is their favourite day. Unfortunately it's not mine coz i have class on Saturday. Yes i can c the lines on ur forehead but nothing can be done coz i'm studying with the part timers who will only be free on weekends. That's y my timetable is the weirdest timetable in the world. I've tried reading bout the company that i'm supposed to do an analysis on its financial situation for yr 2002 to 2005 but while reading the press release, i nearly fall asleep thank God there's something called msn messenger in this world that keeps me awake throughout this torturous period. And today was the first time i've done such a weird thing. Let me tell u. When i was about to walk towards the carpark of the college, i suddenly craved for the moist chocolate cake that is available at the college's cafeteria and without thinking how much i have in my pocket, i straight away walk to the cafeteria to buy MY chocolate cake. After buying, i felt a bit lost coz i din noe where to eat them. Well, i dun wanna eat them at the noisy cafeteria nor the bz foyer. I'm one person who wants to enjoy my favourite things quietly. So guess where i went to? Finally, i walked in the rain (not that heavy) heading towards my car as fast as possible and hopped into the car...There there...i finally found peace which i was longing for for the past few hours. Even when i was in the library, i couldn't experience such peace in my mind coz the stupid indicator outside the library keeps beeping. Ok..After getting into my car, i slowly open the package that contains my chocolate cake and cut a small cube and put into my 'wai sek' mouth...ohh....it's so nice...................and after finishing it, i went home happily...

Finally, the new maid arrived. However, the thought that i can now concentrate more on my studies is absolutely wrong. Why? Well, she is not a perfect one and has very bad memory. And of course, she makes mistakes. Well, i can accept someone new in her work making mistakes and i'm willing to correct her slowly. Unfortunately, i have an auntie who expects her to be good and once again, this new maid is not up to her expectation. So this brilliant auntie of mine expects me to follow the maid up and down to c how she does her work. And to correct immediately. That is why i can concentrate in my studies as she keeps on complaining, complaining and complaining to me how terrible the new maid is. Why is she always like that? Why can't she just give her some time to get used to the routine n work? And i also hope that she can give me a break. I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL THE COMPLAINS!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Right now i'm really feeling stupid. I know i'm suffering and yet i'm suffering quietly without telling many people. Is that the right thing to do? I feel like a maid who can drive and read and write coz i've been doing all these since March. I wonder when this is gonna end coz i will burst anytime. My aunties are alwiz eyeing on my off days so that i can do things for them. At the same time, my bf is also eyeing on the same things so that i can spend time with him. Unfortunately, all of us have 24 hours a day and we can't do much. Why can't they jus let me have my own life? I was thinking of moving out of this place but i'm very very sure that my parents will reject this proposal coz even though i am 21, they treat me like 12. But when there's disaster, they treat me like 21 again. Yeah, i noe it's very confusing but that is what is happening. So it's better to spill it out here before it's too late where i have to visit the psychiatrist (forgot how to spell). I alwiz wish i could talk to someone but when i started the conversation, i just dunno how to say it. And i'll end up saying stupid things. This usually happen when i call my boyfriend and when i start to speak there's no response from him coz he expect me to say something since i'm the one who called him. In actual fact, i'm jus too bored n need someone to talk to me. Why is it so difficult then? In my opinion, this is not too much right? I jus want someone to listen to me, respond to me, in return, talk to me....